FUCK YOU!!

You know what FUCK YOU.. FUCK HER.. I hate people.

Fuck You and have a nice day!!

So I woke up this morning with a FUCK you attitude. Why am I not worth more then some bitch who stole your child and ran to another country?! TWICE!!!

I AM BETTER!
I AM KINDER!
I AM MORE HONEST!
I AM MORE LOYAL!
I AM MORE DEDICATED!
I AM MORE INVOLVED!

No one in my life will EVER make me feel like i am less then some shady bitch EVER again.

Do you! Do what you gotta do but just remember I will be as well. |

I am NO ONES Second choice. I wouldnt deal with it from either or my children's fathers and I sure as hell am NOT dealing with it from anyone else. Plain and fucking simple!

How would it make you feel..

How would it make you feel to be told that because you dont have a child with the person you're with that they could up and leave without a second thought..

How would you feel if someone told you this and made it very clear they dont want a child with you..

How do you build when you know that because you dont have a child regardless how long you're together they could get fed up or bored and just leave and not blink an eye..

How do you trust or build on a foundation that isnt solid.. a foundation that could fall or be torn away from you in a matter of seconds..

How could anyone be so cruel..

I cant compete with her..

Did you know I am not her..
I wont have perfect hair like her..
I don't have some fancy fucking accent like her..
I don't have stories of my childhood in a different country like her..
I didn't grow up with a "normal' life like her..
I will never carry your child like she did..
I will never be your first love..
I will Never be her..
I am just me..
I am the girl who grew up with an abnormal childhood..
I didn't have my parents by my side..
I was beaten and broken before i even knew what that ment..
I will always have trust issues not with just you but with everyone in my life..
I will always be "different"..
I will always be "difficult"..
Outspoken..
Opinionated..
I will always have no filter..
I will always speak my mind..
I will NEVER be sorry for being me..
I am a TRUE friend..
I am Honest to a Fault..
I Love Harder and Longer then most..
If that's not good enough for you..
Then you don't deserve me anyways

To The Shady Fucking Bitch

Do you really think i'm stupid?!
Do you really think i will let you keep playing these pathetic games?!

Do you think you own his heart still you silly fool?!
Because the answer is HELL NO!
Keep playing little girl because he may not be able to tell you off for the fact you have his daughter and you use her as your weapon against him and always have. Well news flash for you, how long do you think thats going to last, how long before she sees the reason she isnt with her dad isnt because of him its because of you. how long before she sees you for the disgusting fool you are?! How long before she is no longer "useful" to you, how long before you have no control over her electronics or her time to talk to her father?! How long before she hates you for coming between them?! how long before she sees that his life is great as long as your not in it?! how long do you think you can hold on before everything comes crashing down around you?! Did you really think the issues were him?! How could you be jealous of the relationship between your litle girl and her daddy enough to Snatch her and run?! How can you say you love her and take the one relationship that molds a little girl..how could you be so stupid to not know how important it is for a little girl to have her daddy around. If you wanted help and support to raise your daughter you shouldn't have stole her and ran across the world with her. How long do you think she will buy into your fucking bullshit?! How long do you think I'm going to allow you to walk on my feet?! How long do you think i'm going to sit back and watch your games go on. You lost control of this game when your ass left him here to meet a strong headed woman like myself. Keep playing and i'll see your ass in the court room while i stand beside my Man or i'll see you when we fly over and knock on your door to see his daughter. Meet His Real Queen and just like in the game of chess the Queen protects her King. 

To The Woman I Never Met..

Hi, I know i will never get to meet you or get to know exactly how amazing of a woman or mother

you were but i can see it in your son's eyes. I can see how amazing you were by the light and sorrow in his eyes when he talks about you. I can see how important you were by the tears that well in his eyes when he talks about you. i know you gave him many memories and many laughs in his life. I am writing you today on your anniversary to say Thank you. Thank you for raising the most amazing man i have ever met in my entire life. Thank you for letting him make mistakes along the way and supporting him threw it all because it has made him a strong man and helped him push threw all the hurt and pain he's endured before and after you have been gone. I want to let you know that i hope i can make you proud and be the woman that your son deserves in his life. I hope you are smiling down on both Tim and your daughters and you grandchildren with a smile bright and pure enough to light the sky for them on their dark days. I Love your son with all my heart and I hope your looking down on our lives with pride and acceptance. All My Love and thoughts on this day..thank you for being the amazing woman you were and raising your Prince to become my king. <3

Ramble about the love of my life xo

Okay well i'm laying here in bed thinking of what to write about since my blogs come in far and few between spurts lol and beside me lays this amazing,hilarious,completely insane man that i am head over heels for. He has changed me in so many ways in the last few months that it even surprises me. I am by far the "cuddly" "affectionate" type by any means nor am I the type to show emotions very easily but he brings a very different side of me out. i cant begin to explain it because i dont fully understand it myself. i can tell you that i see a future with him. He talks about it so easily and it makes me get butterflies in my tummy lol half is nervousness and the other excitement..i have never met someone like him before. He makes me laugh,he makes me smile literally all the time. i cant believe i actually found my perfect match. He truly is my future <3