An update!

So I took a break for awhile. I really needed to get threw things and FINALLY I did. Ryan and I have been apart since Last august and I have my seven kids, Chris takes our older three boys every weekend still, so more or less the only thing that has changed in regards to all that last year drama is Ryan and I are no longer on speaking terms and he doesn't see his children and refuses to pay child support for any of them. BUUTTTTT I do have one really amazing change in my life. His name is Nico. I don't think I have laughed like I do with him in years. Honestly he's truly amazing. He is motivated to make change in life, he's handy and a hard worker and my kids adore him which is a huge thing for me.. he also has a cute bum lol I really enjoy his company and I haven't been able to say that about someone in a long time. Every time I am with him he makes me laugh and he is so good to us. Its something I am working on getting used to. Its not easy learning to trust again..I know he notices that It isn't easy for me to just sit down and let someone else handle things or just try and give me a break. He is really something else and I don't know exactly where this is going but I cant wait to find out. Another thing I would like to share is the greatest bestie in the entire world. Her name is Wendi. This girl has seen me threw the toughest and darkest time in my life and I her as well. She is the only person I have met in my life that has seen the same dark lonely road I had to go down all my life. We have so much in common that its rather scary at times but honestly she has been such a great support for me and I would be so lost without her and her family. Her boys are so sweet and everyday they give me a reason to smile and laugh. So bright and such colorful personalities and my daughter Meyah would be lost without her buddies Juj(Justin) & LoLo(Logan.. yes another logan lol) they are amazing boys and we all adore them. My nephew Zach recently moved in and he is really good friends with her older son Kyle and Her oldest and only daughter Sam is awesome. She's a young woman any mother would be proud of. Almost forgot to tell you all that I had my beautiful son Connor Joel James Joseph Marshall on Jan 29th 2015. I had my mom and my cousin Shay with me for delivery. Ryan didn't come..not for a month after he was born and he only saw him a handful of times since. I have come to terms that connor and probably Colten will never know their father and as sad as that is since I did everything in my power to prevent that its probably for the better anyways. Connor is 6 months and is a whopping 21LBS he's a super chunker lol I'll post about Connors birth and what not another night its so insane I don't even believe I went threw it all and came out sane lol Did menschen that I broke my foot at 8+months pregnant lol :/ yea really crazy story let me tell ya lol But for now I am off to relax while I have the chance before bed. bye for now!! xo

30 Day Count Down!!

So Today Marks 30 days till we go from Mama of Six Kids to Mama of Lucky #7 (And YES this is it lol ) I am grateful that God gave me the strength to endure labor and delivery of Seven Healthy and happy children and not only that but gave me the ability to be happy and humble about having all these kids. I am so grateful that i get to be that one Mother that is Different. I am not everyone else. I believe i was built differently with a mind set that i have so that i can endure not only the children but also the hardships that i have dealt with over my 30yrs. I am very grateful and a little leery on Gods choice to put it all on my shoulders but i trust that there is a reason for it all. Have a blessed day! <3

Ever have that one person...

So lately me and my younger soon to be four children's dad have been at our end with each other.

I really hate that things have taken such a bad turn for our relationship but "It Is What It Is"

I Dont Believe that the "teenaged" man or so he acts.. laying on my couch is the same person i gave my heart to. 

I dont believe he can change from this lazy,mean,bitter person he's allowed himself to become will ever change or become the man i fell for. I wish he would, i have prayed to God so many times to please just give me My Ryan back.. if not for me then for his children's sake. And he just gets worse and worse as time goes by. He refuses to see that there is a problem, no sorry that's wrong.. He blames me for literally EVERYTHING. and its not just us its literally everything in his life,the world..its all my fault. I'm just sick of picking up his slack and trying to force him to love and pay attention to his kids. I am not the one slacking around my home,with my kids.. I feel Anger and Pain every single day..but i still get up with my kids, i still do everything for them. I still pick up his slack in our families lives. Like today, His mother,step dad and his brother are coming to take our two oldest of my and his kids and I have to get them ready and things together for them to go while he lays around on my couch after sleeping till 10:30am and worst he isnt even going with them or going to move off my couch the entire day. I broke my foot a month or so ago.. he treated me like shit while i took care of six kids,cooked,cleaned, even broke the heel of my cast from having to walk around on it till i got sick of it and cut it off myself.. did i mention that i was also pregnant with a cast for four weeks.. oh and that i have osteoporosis and have for about 8yrs now.. Honestly NONE of this even mattered to him. He was so cruel and told me i was Milking my broken foot while i was the only parent that my younger kids had to count on..even had the nerve to tell me a few days ago that i faked my broken foot. I have tried so hard to get him to stop his garbage and go seek help but he refuses. its sad that such a good man could turn into such a horrible human being. I cant stand anything about him anymore. The reasons i fell for him was cuz he loved my kids,he was stable,he was a hard worker, he was a good person, always fought for the lil guy and was that guy that bullied the bullies for picking on girls or people smaller then they were... But Now.. He's that guy. Alot of the time lately i wish he wasnt even my kids father. They'd be better off with no dad then someone like him at this point. It wasnt always like this. He was an amazing person that came into our lives when me and my three older boys had no one to count on. But ppl change and feelings change. My kids don't get love,attention or effection from him and neither do I. He thinks of him and only him.. So I feel its time for me to worry about me and mine and just pretend like he doesn't exist..

Welcome to The Mad House!!

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        My name is Stephanie. Everyone usually calls me Steph. I am the crazy mother of Soon to be seven children. Yes, Seven. haha. Life isn't "Normal" by any means. It's sure as heck ain't easy either. My Children are Quintan who will be 11 in Feb. He is a very smartyet typical boy for 11, My Son Miles James who is Autistic and also suffers from Tourettes Syndrome But even still is a high functioning 9yr old boy, Leland who is my Sport playing,Loves to cook, LiL ladies man. Everyone loves his out going personality. Then their is Logan Lee. He is a spunky,spirited 6 yr old boy with a personality to please and be loved by all. He too is a social bug like his big brother leland. Everyone loves him and his caring side. He is always willing to help and be a good friend to anyone who needs one. And then there is my one and only princess Meyah(Me-ya) She is 4 and she is so much personality and so social she will gladly and openly talk to anyone.. old,young,big,small, It doesnt matter to her. She Loves Everyone. She is my twin threw and threw. Looks,personality and everything. Only thing she got from her Father is she is the sloppiest sleeper in the entire universe i'm sure of it lol and for now Last but not least. My sweet lil mama'z boy Colten. He is My everything and I am his. Mama is Coltie's security blanket. He and I went threw so much together. His father was not involved for his pregnancy or labor is was just Colten and I. As has been the same with our newest boy to be Connor. I am 32 weeks pregnant with another Boy. The kids and I have decided on the name Connor. Normally I would want input from their dad but he and I dont get along anymore. I didnt exspect Colten or Connor as Logan,Meyah,Colten and Connor's dad Ryan and I havent seen eye to eye since before meyah was born. He and I dont have a good relationship like Quintan,Miles and Leland's Dad Chris have. Chris and I were together for 8yrs and he was my bestfriend for many years before that as well. Things didnt work and he recently married a young girl named Carissa whom is alot like myself at her age and we get along fantastically even thought we did have a ruff start, I do however consider her a friend now and A very large part of the other half of my kids parents cuz when chris and I dont agree she usually does end up agreeing with me on most things due to we are alot alike lol As for Ryan and I..Yea well, we dont see eye to eye on ANYTHING. He is very very different from who he was when we got together. I dont like who he is and nothing about him appeals to me anymore. He isnt a good person at this point in his life and its sad cuz he WAS one of the best guys i knew but he let shit change who he was..so much so that i cant stand to even be near him let alone actually have a civil conversation with him. He isnt involved with his children the way he should be, where chris is and always will be heavily involved. I am and always will be grateful to chris for his dedication to our boys and even though we are very different in our parenting he is still 100% always there when i need him, and not only for our boy but he's a good friend and still a stable support for myself as well. He knows i am a great mom with very lil support in my and the kids day to day lives. He's never treated my other kids differently really and they do love talking to him and jumping on him and things. Our family isnt normal and our lives arent easy but we really wouldnt change things much. Its a Crazy Life But Its Our Life!!

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